In the month since my last post, the world has changed for all of us.
How are you all doing? Right now is a lot! Like we’re living in some sort of collective fever dream. My anxiety throws me into overdrive. I can’t sleep. I can’t stop refreshing news sites. I check Twitter. I watch news conferences on YouTube and the daily briefings from the governor . And then, I avoid everything and pretend it’s not happening. That it’s a vacation, complete with mid-morning dance parties and early evening cocktails. I’m hoping in the coming weeks to find some sort of balance. If The Good Place taught us anything, it’s that living in limbo is it’s own kind of hell!
I’m establishing a new routine for us. But, I’m also saying yes to lazy days and ignoring my to do list when we need it. I’m trying to stay informed. But, I’m also choosing to spend a chunk of the day off line listening to music and reading books. We’re doing some school work with Rowan. But, I know that I’m not an educator and I need to redefine what success looks like in these extraordinary circumstances. I’m also recognizing the privilege in slowing down and taking my time to process as I know many people are still out there as essential workers or now working from home and taking on the additional responsibility of educating their kids while doing so.
I’m not even sure what I’m trying to say except that I’m thinking of you and hoping that you are all safe and staying healthy. Cut yourself some slack for not being able to do it all or not wanting to do anything. In this new normal, getting through the day is a job well done.
